Me Gusta Los Pajaros.

So it's been a productive week. Track meet on Thursday with EV and Cheney went really good, i p.r.-ed in the 800 with a 2:14, so ive been pretty stoked about that and then today at freeman i ran a 2:16 with a lot of wind and earned a ribbon, so track has been going good.

But more importantly, I've realized you just gotta go get em sometimes, like,on Thursday I caught up with a kid from Cheney but wasnt really sure if I should pass him or not, lo and behold he slows way down out of nowhere and kinda messed me up, taking off from this, today me and kody went around a kid from... somewhere? haha and anyway, he ended up passing me up again in the last 100 meters but I'm still pretty proud of myself for sackin up and competing like that. In the future I'm not gonna be shy from just charging by people and running my race how I want, even if they come back in the end I won't have any "what if" situation.

All I Want Is

Sooo, it's been a while.

I've been kinda bus and stuff I guess, no big deal. Track is actually going pretty good, I turned my ankle pretty bad thursday evening after our meet in Wenatchee, but that was alright, cause I did pretty good in that meet there.

I got 4th in the 800m, with a 2:18, thats not a terrible time, and I guess I'm gonna keep improving. I'm 7th in the GNL with that time, so that's cool too, with any luck I'll be able to run in districts this year for the first time.

In the 800 we went out SUPER hard, with like a 26 second 200 and stuff, but that was alright, we chilled out after the 200 and still had enough going for the rest of the race. Kody got 2nd, so that was good, and Curly got 5th so in that race alone we swung like 13 points. After the race I went on a sweet cool down since I ended up without a 4x4 to run in, and I took some photos too!

I've Laid My Burden Down

Well today has had some ups and downs. Overall I guess I'm not real stoked about this whole running situation. Let's be honest, I love running. But it's pretty hard for me to stay positive about it. I've ran, maybe 10 miles this week total, not even a lot and my shin splints are just killing me. Now this might not seem like a big deal, but it's stopping me from enjoying something I love doing, and that's how it's always been for me. Tomorrow I'm gonna run in my jingas, maybe taking a day off from fighting my gigantic nikes will feel a little better. I pretty much feel like a bitch though, my friend has osteonecrosis in his knees and here I am complaining about my shins hurting, that's pretty dumb.

I hope I can make running not hurt, Barbero seems to think I should be fast in track, maybe if I could make it through runs alright I could be.

I'm Gassed

Well, I just got done running, I think I ran 2.5-3 miles in about 25 minutes, give or take. probably more like 2.5 in 28 or something terrible.

Whatever. I feel really good right now, out on the run my shins were hurting a little bit, but nothing too bad, I think once I get back into the swing of things I'll get the kinks ironed out. Track starts in exactly 7 days, I haven't run hardly at all over winter. It's ok. I'm doing track this year because I think some of the younger kids in the distance corner kinda need me, aaaand more importantly, because Sarah is doing it. Even though I think part of why she's doing it is because I'm doing it haha. This year in track I'm endeavoring to just have fun with it, I'm not gonna work thaaat hard, just hard enough not to embarrass anybody.

I haven't been able to read Moby Dick for the past few days, my grandma's house has some mold in it or something and helping take care of her has been messing up my eyes pretty bad, like pink eye kinda symptoms, but not pink eye... pretty lame. I was gonna try and read last night but as soon as I had the book open I had to put it down. Lame.

Uh... after Moby Dick I have a whole list of things to read on my shelf. I think the first one I'm going to tackle is Bambi. Yep, Bambi. I have an ooold copy of it, given to "Leroy", christmas of '44. It's an awesome book, I don't really know the story too good and I'm sure the Disney version is bogus anyway, so I'm pretty pumped.

Help I'm Alive.

I'm still here, haven't posted in a while, I've been busy with other things, and doing real writing on real paper.

I'm probabl not gonna post again until I'm done with Moby Dick.

Seven Tigers

I'll be honest with you, I'm feelin' kinda down right now. Just sorta helpless. I hate that feeling.
Someone is having a really hard time right now, and it just kills me. I've said it before, but I'd be a terrible therapist, helping people is really hard on me. I wish I could just make things better, I wish I could make it all go away.

I wish girls would just be nice to each other, I wish little brothers would just quit being idiots. I don't see this happening.

I guess I kinda try and stay positive, people don't realize this but it sure ain't that easy for me. It's pretty damn hard to be honest. I want to make people happy, I don't really put much effort into making myself happy, I figure that will just come.

It won't always get worse, someday things will look up. Life is all about trials and tribulations, it can't always be easy, but it won't always get worse. We have so much to live for, it's hard for me to understand how people can get too upset about things. And it's not like I look down on them because I don't understand, I really wish I could understand, if I could understand maybe I could help...

It's real easy to ask; why? why me? why ____? how come this is? etc. I don't really believe in that line of thought. Happiness is a lot like math. If you're down and focus on being down, and the things that are wrong then you're just going to be more upset. A negative added to a negative just makes a bigger negative. If you try and come up with positive things then you're original negativity can shrink.

I'll go ahead and demonstrate:
Con- my arm don't work.
Now this would be a big deal to a lot of people, a lot of people would have trouble dealing with this, but does it really matter? No.

Let's see why I should be happy instead of sad.
I have a beautiful girlfriend who I love very much, I drive a sweet truck, I have a family that loves me... I could go on.

See, with all these things going right in my life, why focus on the things going wrong?

Honestly, Sarah alone is enough of a reason for me to be happy, whatever shit that goes wrong in my life doesn't really matter in the long run. I just wish more people kinda thought that way.

Ghost Chants

Someday I'll go and see the world. I want to stay in a log cabin. I want to swim in a sea. I want to extend my arms and embrace everything this earth has to offer.

I want to write a book, but I can't write fiction. Fiction is inherently non-truth. I couldn't write non-truth and share it with people. I think I could make short stories; short stories about animals. Stories about animals don't have to be perfectly true to history, but they can be realistic. Animal activities are very varied, and can have a lot of meaning behind them.

If I ever get a notebook I'm gonna start writing in it. I'm internetting for one right now, I'm not sure what I want yet.

I ended up odering this:

http://www.moleskine.com/catalogue/classic/soft/ruled_soft_notebook__extra_large.php