I'll be honest with you, I'm feelin' kinda down right now. Just sorta helpless. I hate that feeling.
Someone is having a really hard time right now, and it just kills me. I've said it before, but I'd be a terrible therapist, helping people is really hard on me. I wish I could just make things better, I wish I could make it all go away.
I wish girls would just be nice to each other, I wish little brothers would just quit being idiots. I don't see this happening.
I guess I kinda try and stay positive, people don't realize this but it sure ain't that easy for me. It's pretty damn hard to be honest. I want to make people happy, I don't really put much effort into making myself happy, I figure that will just come.
It won't always get worse, someday things will look up. Life is all about trials and tribulations, it can't always be easy, but it won't always get worse. We have so much to live for, it's hard for me to understand how people can get too upset about things. And it's not like I look down on them because I don't understand, I really wish I could understand, if I could understand maybe I could help...
It's real easy to ask; why? why me? why ____? how come this is? etc. I don't really believe in that line of thought. Happiness is a lot like math. If you're down and focus on being down, and the things that are wrong then you're just going to be more upset. A negative added to a negative just makes a bigger negative. If you try and come up with positive things then you're original negativity can shrink.
I'll go ahead and demonstrate:
Con- my arm don't work.
Now this would be a big deal to a lot of people, a lot of people would have trouble dealing with this, but does it really matter? No.
Let's see why I should be happy instead of sad.
I have a beautiful girlfriend who I love very much, I drive a sweet truck, I have a family that loves me... I could go on.
See, with all these things going right in my life, why focus on the things going wrong?
Honestly, Sarah alone is enough of a reason for me to be happy, whatever shit that goes wrong in my life doesn't really matter in the long run. I just wish more people kinda thought that way.